I just want to scream WHAT THE FUCK at the top of my lungs. Nothing went right yesterday. Today started off good but the vibe between Bear and me is way off tonight and dammit it's been fucking DAYS since I've gotten laid. Now I know I've gained a good bit of weight since we met but he swears I am still sexy. And I know work is stressful for him right now but there is like NO better stress reliever than making whoopee. UGH!!!!!
I hate these days where I don't know if I have a chance to get lucky by staying up or if I should go to sleep and hope for better tomorrow. I am horny. I mean, I'm like always horny but this is insane, I've been craving this since Wednesday. Four fucking days later, you can imagine the ticking time bomb here.
In other news, busted my ass cleaning and baking today and no gratitude there. Bubba is on my nerves for being a lazy ass but he's a teenage boy so I keep reminding myself that this too shall pass. I get a glimpse of the man he could become every now and again but I just pray he leans that way and not towards this laziness he is so good at these days. Princess has her moments, don't get me wrong but she is a harder worker than he is to be sure. Goober is still being bratty. And all this would get on my nerves a whole lot less if I were getting more regular orgasms.
I'm not trying to be selfish, I know he has needs too but while I don't want to be demanding, I do need more than once a week. Enough complaining...time to say fuck it. I am going to hit the bourbon.
